“And now, we welcome the new year full of things that have never been.”
– Rainer Maria Rilke
After a challenging year that was, to be honest, I really don’t know how to begin. Celebrating the new year suddenly feels different where thrill and hope have been stirred towards the oblivion. It feels scary. The great unknown has become scary.
As the thought haunts me in our holiday villa days before we usher the next chapter, I scoured the shattered pieces of the year that broke me; looked back on the tough battles that defeated me; and reflected on moments that measured me. Zooming out from perspective, I laid down the year that was where the Lord has remained faithful regardless.
“He who promised is faithful!”
Being in one of my favorite city where we spent most of my childhood holidays, It’s clever how the Lord repurposed this trip from being a birthday weekend to a time of healing after losing my lola. It makes me think and look back how the Lord orchestrated everything throughout the year.
Even though there were a lot of days in the previous year that didn’t go as how I wanted to, I realized there were also days filled with blessings and breakthroughs that I was not able to acknowledge. There were days where the Lord has shown compassion and grace as He turned situations around despite of many shortcomings. This made me realize how blessed I am to be put in a moment where the Lord wants me to be.
As I ponder on these thoughts, I felt secured from the unknown I was scared of, being reminded of how everything works together for good. I may not understand every situation all the time but I should trust that the Lord is working things out for His greater purpose.
Now, that the new year is about to unfold, the only thing that I pray is that may I discern the Lord’s plan and have a heart that will obey what He says. May all the fear and sorrow be left behind with only a stronger faith to be brought to the next chapter.
I know, it’s not going to be easy but surely, The Lord promises it’s going to be worth it!
Be still. 2019 is a comeback.
Happy New Year everyone!